Thursday, December 6, 2012

The Old Chest


 It lives in our front room; a piece of furniture that sits in front of the picture window and holds several orchids on a glass shelf that was made to fit. Inside of it, are some old sets of flannel sheets, duvet covers that are out of style, and other linens that are waiting to be boxed and sent to the needy. Sometimes when my eyes rest upon it, it evokes many memories: of its origins, what it used to contain, and its connections to my childhood. 
The chest came to Canada with our family when we emigrated from Holland in the fifties. Family legend has it that it was made by my mother’s father who was a carpenter, when she was just a child, in 1922.  She took it with her to her home when she got married and it was used for storage throughout her life.
 
When I was growing up, the chest resided on the upstairs landing in the house on 17th street. Every once in a while, when I was bored on a rainy Saturday afternoon for example, I would spend time rifling through its contents. Apart from the stash of extra blankets that were stored in the main part of the chest, there was a little side compartment on the left, which contained a variety of interesting objects, and I liked to handle these and imagine where they came from. There was a pair of silver spurs that had been my father’s during his stint in the army as a young man. I remember vague stories about him being on a horse which had allegedly hung itself in the crotch of a tree(perhaps despondent over the futility of the battle) My father fell off, which certainly saved him from an untimely death. I’m not sure whether I concocted that memory while handling and playing with those spurs, but the clarity of it is as though it truly happened.

There was also an old pair of false teeth in the chest. I had no idea to whom these had belonged, I never thought to ask, and I shudder to think how many times I tried them on; always a bit sorry that they didn’t fit a bit more snugly...

Another item I recall was figurine made of silver or pewter, of twin greyhound dogs on the run. They had little pegs on their feet which were meant to fit into a base so they could stand independently. The whole thing was a bit warped so it no longer stood up properly, which was probably the reason these poor greyhounds had been sent to live out their lives in the trunk.

A tiny cut glass perfume bottle with a tarnished silver flip-up lid also was stored there. It was very pretty, and as an adult I often wished I had it for my own. One day, miraculously, when one of my sisters heard this story, she gifted it to me, saying our mother had given to her, but that she had owned it long enough, and that now it was my turn.

The most powerful memory of this old chest is the one of seeing my mother kneel before it each evening before bed to say her nightly prayers. She would first don her long flannel nightgown, then take her grey hair out of its bun at the back of her neck, and comb its length down her back and braid it into a simple plait that was more comfortable to sleep with; then kneel in front of that old chest to pray. This ritual never varied, no matter what events had occurred that day. She prayed quietly, and for several minutes, her head bowed, and seemingly turned her days events and problems over to her Lord. In the morning, she again knelt there, presumably to gain strength and faith to make it through often trouble-filled days.

When we first acquired the old chest (“de ouwe kist”)after my mother’s death, my husband lovingly sanded it, oiled it with several coats of Danish finishing oil, and lined it in cedar. For a short time, it housed our stereo, it components suspended from a cedar frame he made for that purpose. After that, on the farm on Okanagan Avenue, it lived, somewhat neglected for a time in the basement, housing horse blankets, both summer and winter versions. Then it was moved to the landing upstairs after that area was redecorated, and in need of some furniture to make it feel homey.

Finally, with the move to this home, it has at last found its deserved place, in the center of our living space. My eyes can rest upon it daily, and remember my mother, whose presence and love, although she has been gone 33 years, still speak to me through that chest with its memories.

Introduction

A few days ago, I saw a cartoon on Facebook, of a man in his doctor's office. The Doc was reviewing his chest x-ray and exclaimed "Wow, you have a book in you just waiting to come out" I have that feeling now and again and think that is maybe why I get pains in my chest sometimes. Those sharp corners, jabbing into my pleura, or maybe down through my diaphragm into my stomach. Maybe that is the source of my belching...
Writing a book seems like a lot of work. And, I don't  even know where to start. However, I can write a pretty decent blog post, at least I have been known to do so in the past.
My niece, Shirley, once told me that I needed to write the family story, my memoir as such. Again that seems like a huge chunk to bite off and chew, but if I do it like this, story by story, in the form of a blog post, perhaps it will be more doable and digestible.
The blog title, you ask? Just me, wandering through the backwoods of my mind, picking the flowers of my past, digging up old memories and making them legible for anyone who cares to read them.
These stories are exactly that, MY memories. MY take on the past. A certain TV pop psychologist is fond of saying, "there is no reality, only perceptions of reality" or to paraphrase the popular and hackneyed cliche,"Beauty is in The Eye of the Beholder": "Memory is in the Mind of the Memoirist" My take on my past is how I remember things, and how I perceived them. If my elder siblings read this(doubtful) and find them to be erroneous, so be it, that is how I remember it. I do not lie, but if to others, it seems that I do, get over it. These are my recollections. I will endeavor to hurt no feelings. I will remain respectful to the people who raised me. One must remember though that i do have  a sense of humor, and sometimes it gets the better of me. I apologize if that offends you , dear reader. Once again, get over it.
That, my reader, is my intro. Soon I will publish my first entry. I hope you will be entertained and informed, and I would appreciate feedback, especially the positive variety. Just like a certain spotted dog, who will remain unnamed, I love 
a good scratch behind the ears. Good dog!